Blog #4: Worthless

I feel so worthless. I have friends. I have a family. I can buy all the things I want – concert tickets, new bag, new lipstick, airfare, new books, anything. But I feel so lonely. It feels like there is no one out there who cares deeply for me other than me. I feel so unappreciated. Only now have I realized that no one probably is ever thinking about me at random. So just like I have always done, I adjust to my environment. If I’m alone, then I’m alone. If no one’s going to care for me, I’ll stop doing it to people and take care of myself instead. Ever since I started working, nobody has yet to think about me, and what I like, and what could make me happy. It could be my birthday, the Christmas season, or any occasion for that matter. It’s okay though. I’ll be able to adjust from it. I’ll be okay. I’m not depressed. I’ll be fine. I just had to write something because no one knows anything about how I feel and I don’t want everything pent up inside. I deactivated my facebook account. I’ll try to review my life on a different light. I hope, in the end, that I’ll find it in myself to feel happy.

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